this has been long-coming. i meant to do it this past fall....
for the sake of my family and our ever-expanding little world around us i feel that it would be wise to go private. PLEASE comment with your email or personally email your name and email address if you would like to remain a reader of our blog. honestly, i am not even sure who reads it except for a few of my very loyal friends and family =) there are several others who i know frequent as well, and i'm sad because a few of which i do not have open invitations to your blog! if you have a private blog that i haven't been invited to and you'd like to invite me, please include that in your email as well!!!
i will keep this up until the end of february...
thanks, and i will be working my darndest on getting pictures and OUR LIFE back on this blog!
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
feeling peace from within.
amidst the hustle and bustle of the Christmas season, moving into and remodeling a new home, having three small children along with my normal household responsibilities....i have taken a long break from blogging. at times i have viewed this blog as a burden- something to cross off my never ending "to-do" list. now that i have spent quite some time without sharing our world i have realized that i miss it. i have realized that this blog truly is our family history. i can look back on so many memories and also connect again with thoughts that i had and trials or events in our life that touched me at a particular time.
i still have so many projects looming in my future, but i'm tackling them slowly. our house is taking on a lived in feel and it is becoming home. as i sit in our living room early this morning before the sun rises i am grateful for the warmth that we feel here. i am home. this is where i belong. this is where i can gather my family around me. i feel peace at heart knowing that i have a Father in Heaven who knew this need within me and i am so grateful to have a relationship with Him, and my Savior. all things come in their time, and although the last year and a half have been trying for me since we left our home in Twin Falls i finally feel that we have settled in and that we are where we are needed.
i hear a baby stirring and need to get brady off to school....
i have finally chosen to act upon a persistent feeling that i have had for about four years now. over that time i have continued to be prodded by the spirit that i need to relinquish the part of me that loves to stay up late and wake up as late as possible. i have growing children now with very different needs than they did when i became a new mother. i feel like i am entering a new phase: a phase of maturity. this is the last year of my 20's...a year to blossom into the woman that my parents and leaders gently shaped me into being. a year to finally allow myself to truly begin to be molded by the Savior.
the persistent thought has been that if i could arise and take care of myself before all others, that although this may be very hard and a sacrifice for me at first (and maybe even forever) that i will have so much more to offer my family throughout the day. i hate the feeling of being rushed from one thing to another because i was not ready, i was not prepared. i hate having to spend my first hour with my children in the morning rushing from shower, trying to blow dry my hair and slap on my make-up while making sure baby is not getting into anything, getting fed and changed themselves and not being glued to the television all morning. i hate that on the days that i actually do get a shower it takes half to morning just to accomplish getting ready, and the other days i am in "scrub mode."
i want to wake up and feel alive. i want to begin my day with power and intention. there are not many things that i hate more than having to get out of my warm bed before i am ready in the morning, but i can affirm that when i force myself up and get my blood pumping first thing in the morning through exercising my body and my mind i feel an invigorating confidence all day long that helps me be a better me.
so, here's to fresh starts. here's to 2013, the year that i shed the selfishness that i've been tenanciously clinging to, trying to avoid "growing up." sometimes i feel as if i've just been playing house the last 7 years as a mother and 10 years as a wife. i am awaking now to an understanding that i can be so much more! to myself and my family!
and just as my children strive when there is order and routine in our home, so do i. we have never really had house projects other than landscaping to attend to. our first home was built and ready to move into. this new house of ours has been a completely different picture which i grossly underestimated in terms of time, and challenge. i am a creature of comforts, i like to have my house orderly and when it is in chaos i feel like i am in chaos. although there is still much to do i learning to prioritize and not become distracted. i am learning to allow myself to focus on one thing (or room) at a time. i am thankful that my children are resilient and that my family is patient! what an incredible feeling of satisfaction it is to complete a room and step back and witness the transformation. i am so thankful that i was taught young by my mother and father that hard work is good work.
i've got a LOT of updating to do!
i still have so many projects looming in my future, but i'm tackling them slowly. our house is taking on a lived in feel and it is becoming home. as i sit in our living room early this morning before the sun rises i am grateful for the warmth that we feel here. i am home. this is where i belong. this is where i can gather my family around me. i feel peace at heart knowing that i have a Father in Heaven who knew this need within me and i am so grateful to have a relationship with Him, and my Savior. all things come in their time, and although the last year and a half have been trying for me since we left our home in Twin Falls i finally feel that we have settled in and that we are where we are needed.
i hear a baby stirring and need to get brady off to school....
i have finally chosen to act upon a persistent feeling that i have had for about four years now. over that time i have continued to be prodded by the spirit that i need to relinquish the part of me that loves to stay up late and wake up as late as possible. i have growing children now with very different needs than they did when i became a new mother. i feel like i am entering a new phase: a phase of maturity. this is the last year of my 20's...a year to blossom into the woman that my parents and leaders gently shaped me into being. a year to finally allow myself to truly begin to be molded by the Savior.
the persistent thought has been that if i could arise and take care of myself before all others, that although this may be very hard and a sacrifice for me at first (and maybe even forever) that i will have so much more to offer my family throughout the day. i hate the feeling of being rushed from one thing to another because i was not ready, i was not prepared. i hate having to spend my first hour with my children in the morning rushing from shower, trying to blow dry my hair and slap on my make-up while making sure baby is not getting into anything, getting fed and changed themselves and not being glued to the television all morning. i hate that on the days that i actually do get a shower it takes half to morning just to accomplish getting ready, and the other days i am in "scrub mode."
i want to wake up and feel alive. i want to begin my day with power and intention. there are not many things that i hate more than having to get out of my warm bed before i am ready in the morning, but i can affirm that when i force myself up and get my blood pumping first thing in the morning through exercising my body and my mind i feel an invigorating confidence all day long that helps me be a better me.
so, here's to fresh starts. here's to 2013, the year that i shed the selfishness that i've been tenanciously clinging to, trying to avoid "growing up." sometimes i feel as if i've just been playing house the last 7 years as a mother and 10 years as a wife. i am awaking now to an understanding that i can be so much more! to myself and my family!
and just as my children strive when there is order and routine in our home, so do i. we have never really had house projects other than landscaping to attend to. our first home was built and ready to move into. this new house of ours has been a completely different picture which i grossly underestimated in terms of time, and challenge. i am a creature of comforts, i like to have my house orderly and when it is in chaos i feel like i am in chaos. although there is still much to do i learning to prioritize and not become distracted. i am learning to allow myself to focus on one thing (or room) at a time. i am thankful that my children are resilient and that my family is patient! what an incredible feeling of satisfaction it is to complete a room and step back and witness the transformation. i am so thankful that i was taught young by my mother and father that hard work is good work.
i've got a LOT of updating to do!
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